I’m back to square 1 with the drinking. And I’m scared because I don’t know how I got back here. Like I try to figure it out. But the minute the alcohol touches my lip, I lose all control. I drink till I’m out.
Just found a way out of this cycle of longing for something I want; that I will never get. I can’t be happy. I chose all the bad choices in my life and I lived with them and I am still living with them. And I lost everything already.
This world is so lonely and I don’t know how much longer I can live in it.