Back to square 1

I’m back to square 1 with the drinking. And I’m scared because I don’t know how I got back here. Like I try to figure it out. But the minute the alcohol touches my lip, I lose all control. I drink till I’m out.

Just found a way out of this cycle of longing for something I want; that I will never get. I can’t be happy. I chose all the bad choices in my life and I lived with them and I am still living with them. And I lost everything already.

This world is so lonely and I don’t know how much longer I can live in it.


One thought on “Back to square 1

  1. Relapse is okay, it’s a part of recovery. It’s okay to be human and make mistakes. We all do. What matters is getting back up and trying again. Talk to a friend or family member, ask for help. You are worth it and things will get better!


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