Today was actually a very neutral day for once. It wasn’t bad and it wasn’t good. But it this rare days, that I get a clear view of my life and where it’s headed.
And after thinking about the past couple of months. And just reflecting on how last year went . I came to see where my future is going. And I really only see three options. And only two are really reachable.
My first option is checking myself into a hospital and just hoping someone can find some miracle cure for me.
My second option is just to keep on living like I am now. And just staying stuck in this rut.
My third option is death. Taking my life before I get worse and I know there will never be no true cure. And that this would be painless for me and for other people.
This is my three and I might have to chose soon. Before this turns into a bad or good night. But no one what I chose, it was my choice.