What do you do when you have no where to hide? When the silence becomes overwhelming? Where do you go when the demons inside threatens to consume you?
When you have nowhere to else to go. When the safely of the music goes away and you have to face the true raw feelings. The moments when you feel your heart beating. Slower. And slower. Trying to match your breathing.
As you are trying to drown out the overwhelming thoughts. And trying to damper the silence. As your thoughts go colliding into another and creating news ones. Ones that just rumble and fumble. Thoughts that have no clear beginning or end.
Making that choice of staying awake or falling asleep. Wondering which is worse. Thinking your thoughts or dreaming about them. Seeing the memories in your sleep or seeing them in your daydreams.
To drown out the silence or embrace it. Embrace the silence that makes you feel scared. And makes you feel what you don’t want to. Or run and hide inside the noise.