No one knows the pain of self sabotage. I do it to myself. All the time.
I just feel happy then I ruin it. There is no longer a grey area. Its just all black and white. It doesn’t matter what I do.
I ruin everything. I lose people like normal people lose socks. I damage all relationships. I don’t deserve them.
I don’t deserve to have a boyfriend and/or friends. I wreck my own happiness. I wreck people.
I am to much for anyone. Sorry guys.