I am not sure what to do. I am happy I guess that I do have supporting people.
But I don’t want to anymore. It is just so tiring. And it brings up a lot of bad shit I don’t want to rememeber.
I feel so sick telling her about my past. And I am not sure she truly still loves me or not. She says she does.
I feel sick for all the things I did in my past. I wish I have died. It would have been so much easier on everyone. It would mean a lot less pain for everyone I know. All I do is cause pain and misery.
I don’t know what to do. I am so lost. And I just hate myself.