New treatment, new hope

I start ECT treatments next week and I am scared and nervous.  And I also have a growing hope in me that this will help. That maybe I will finally be able to sleep. Finally be normal for a while. I know there is a lot of risk involved. But my theaprist thinks this is what is best. Because nothing else seems to be helpful. 

So basically this a last ditch effort so I can lead a normalish life. Never thought it would come to this. But I am willing to try anything. I am tried of living on this brink I can’t get away from. 

So yeah that is the only update I have.