I know you read my blog sometimes. And since you won’t talk to me. This is the only way I can get thru to you.
I tried to be friends. I wanted to be friend with you again. But I realize I can’t be. I guess I was always hoping you would grow out of your feelings for me but I don’t think you ever will.
And right now I have a boyfriend who I love more then anything. And I am trying really hard not to ruin this one. And I am working on getting my life to a good place.
And I realize I can’t do that being friends with you. You know to much about my past. And I don’t you using that against me. I’m not saying you will but that fear is still there.
Me and my mom are finally working on things and it makes me so happy we are.
I finally found a little place in this world where I feel like I belong. I will always love you and you will always have a special place in my heart.
But like with everything else. I have to let you go. I need to let all of my past go. And it not easy for me to write this because I don’t want to let you go but I know I need to.
I just hope you don’t blame yourself. Because its not your fault. I just want you to be happy. I want us to be happy and the only way that is going to happen is if I let you go.
I hope you find happiness in your life and I hope you find a great person to be with. And I hope you don’t go back to how you used to be and you stay happy Alex.