Where do I start? Do I start at the beginning or at the end? I honestly wish you never stepped off that ledge. I wish I was a better friend and I was there for you when you really needed it. I wish we didn’t fight. I wish I could take back everything I did. I wish I did just leave you two alone because maybe you two would be happy together. But it to late for that.
You were my oldest and most dearest friend. We did everything together for a long time. We were glued together. And with that said, we also started our downward spiral together. We hit that bottom not at the same time but close to it
I remember the first time we ever got drunk together and you fell down the basement stairs and bust your lip open. I remember us skipping out on school to go smoke.
I remember getting expelled from school for you. I got into so many fights when those bullies would pick on you. No one could hurt my Sophia.
But I did hurt you. And I am sorry for hurting you. Even before that last time.
I remember when our lives got in tangled. That time on the playground when I pushed you in a mud puddle and the next day you punched me. That was the start of our friendship.
I miss you so much and I regret my last words to you. I will regret for the rest of my life.
I wish our friendship wasn’t so destructive. I wish our friendship was so much better then what it was. I wish I could just lie and stay we had the perfect friendship but we didn’t.
I remember most of our time together. The bad memories and the good memories even tho I wish I had more good memories to remember. I just remember more bad because we were so destructive together. Together, me and you were just each other’s toxic to fill each other up.
I love you Sophia. And as much as I wishh, I can’t change the past. I can only focus on the future. And sadly that is without you. I am sorry I wasn’t there for you again. I am sorry I failed you one last time. And this time there is no fixing it.
I am sorry.
Goodbye Sophia. I hope you finally found some kind of peace and happiness. I hope whatever was deeply troubling is better now. I hope you are with your parents again.