It is amazing what having support from people you care and love can do. The road forward isn’t going to the smoothest road ever. But I am happy for my boyfriend and all of my friends.
I have learned self acceptance can be the best thing in the world. I finally feel like my life has meaning. Like I am not living a lie anymore. I feel happy for one. A real happy.
I am happy I can be me finally. I don’t need to keep this secret anymore. I am finally learning to love myself.
I decided on Karter. I love that name. No clue why but when I say it; it feels like it should have always been my name. It makes smile.
I can’t wait for this journey to begin.
As I remember things that happened in the past. I’m started to realize how much I forgot and why I did it. I’m just so scared of what I might learn.
And I’m also on the crossroad of whether or not I want to transition into being a female. Or if I want to stay male. It is not a easy choice. One way I’ll have to deal with society and how they view transgender. And the other I have to deal with never feeling comfortable about who I am. It a very hard choice to make.
And I know all of my friends will support thru whatever choice I make. They know I will be the same person, just look different. Just don’t know if I’m really ready to make this choice yet. And I wanna know if I could live with myself with whatever choice I make.
I got to take to my friend and family and get their options on it.